Direction

So often I hear people talking about how God has "called" them to this thing or to that and I wonder what they mean by that phrase. I feel it strange to speak of God's guidance in such specific terms because in my experience, it just isn't that way. It's so much more than any specified "Christianese" term could represent.

It is completely bizarre to me to think of the ways in which God has directed my life. I can say for certain that I have never audibly heard God say "Casey...you must go this way...". I am also sure that there are decisions I have made in my life without consulting God at all; And this is where my point resides. Even though I may not always look to God when making choices, and even though I may not hear him, he is still very, very much in control.

For example; as I walked with my wonderful husband today, I realised that God intended us to be together and we followed our shepherd, but we really had no clue what was going on. I thought back to the beginning of our relationship, as we were walking, and I said to Jesse "we weren't even friends when we got married." Isn't that ridiculous? We liked each other, yes. We each thought the other interesting and exciting, yes. We even trusted one another, but there was really no guarantee of what would come, other than the fact that no matter how we felt in the future, we would be together.

So now hear we are. We've been married for 3 of the bumpiest years we've had to date, and yet I now see these years as 3 of the most simple years possible. For in these years, God has silently and consistently pushed us ever closer to him, and to each other. As we walked today I looked at the man beside me and I didn't think only of his handsomeness, commitment and his love. I didn't think about any problems or expectations. I looked at my husband and thanked God for the fact that I am married to my best friend -- as cliche as it may sound. Our friendship has developed throughout our marriage and I am so glad that we committed ourselves to each other on that day, in 2006, even though we had no assurance of being any closer in the future than we were at the time.

And so I conclude - it is not necessary for us to feel like God is guiding us and it is not vital for us to wait to move until we hear his voice. The most important thing, is for us to walk in the knowledge that God is God, God is good, and God is ever present regardless of our feelings on the matter!