So we have moved 2 hours away from the family we have in Saskatoon. You'd think this would mean that we are farther away, but in this case it seems to be quite the opposite. I suppose it might be a case of happy people being happier in their relationships, but I think it's more than that. I think you appreciate the time you get to spend with people a lot more when you don't get to spend much with them.
A while back Becky and I had a conversation which each other and decided that we wanted to work harder at our relationship. So we started talking more, and getting together more, and then I moved. This might have knocked us back a step, but instead it seems to have pushed it forward exponentially. I suppose I am only speaking from my perspective, but I hope this feeling of closeness is mutually held.
I have spent 2 weekends with Becky and Garnet and the kids and have had such a wonderful time!!! Thank you Becky so much for your hospitality and friendship! Your kids are a blessing and I've loved this time I've had to spend with you, and with them!
We are farther from Saskatoon and some of the people we love, but we feel closer emotionally to those people, we are closer to reaching our dreams and achieving our own family unity, and we are closer to contentedness...it's a great thing to be so close!
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Inertia
Law of Inertia. Newton’s first law of inertia states that objects tend to resist changes in their state of motion. An object in motion will tend to stay in motion and an object at rest will tend to stay at rest unless acted upon by a force.
To understand what forces are needed in life would be to know the impossible. It is interesting to me to think of the ways my life has changed in the last five years. Five years ago I was in a dead-end relationship fighting tooth and nail and screaming at the top of my lunges in an attempt to save what I thought was vital to my existence. So enthralled was I, that the thought of better things (or people for that matter) to come never even crossed my mind - nay, those thoughts came and were deliberately pushed away. Certainty as it may seem is less truthful than I had previously thought.
One year after that, I could feel the pendulum swing. Even in the midst of the situation I could feel the change, like it was in the air, or pinned on the moon as a reminder. Though I couldn't have known it at the time, I was ending a destructive relationship and moving on to bigger and better things. I thought I was waiting for the return of my love, but in all honesty, I knew that the love I awaited would come from what I had forgotten, not what I had chased. In six months I realised that I was beautiful and loved and could be the person I wanted to be if only I were to accept the love of my creator as my sufficiency. I was walking with a friend of mine by the river and I told her that I was content being who I was, where I was in life. That I was in love with my life, with my God, and with my future.
Enter Jesse. To this day I honestly believe that only God knows how and why Jesse and I met. I think it will take a lifetime to find out why we are together and how God designed us to be exactly right for each other. Right in ways we like, and in ways we hate, but right none the less. My passion, commitment and convictions collide as I strive to love this man and accept his love for me. Though I am not yet complete, I am completely loved.
Exit Christ (or at least back up). Throughout these, the greatest years of my life, darkness has crept upon me. Though it has gained no foothold, the idea that I can manage life on my own has continually tempted me. And for this, another pendulum has been installed thus leading me to the present time and situation. It's in the air again, and once again hung on the moon. I embrace the confidence that comes with new independence and reliance. Alone, I feel powerful. My God will continue to complete me and for that reason I cling to his Grace, Hope and Peace. As we turn towards our new life we feel the inertia break. It is completely uncomfortable, irritating, fulfilling and beautiful. It is complex. As it should be.
To understand what forces are needed in life would be to know the impossible. It is interesting to me to think of the ways my life has changed in the last five years. Five years ago I was in a dead-end relationship fighting tooth and nail and screaming at the top of my lunges in an attempt to save what I thought was vital to my existence. So enthralled was I, that the thought of better things (or people for that matter) to come never even crossed my mind - nay, those thoughts came and were deliberately pushed away. Certainty as it may seem is less truthful than I had previously thought.
One year after that, I could feel the pendulum swing. Even in the midst of the situation I could feel the change, like it was in the air, or pinned on the moon as a reminder. Though I couldn't have known it at the time, I was ending a destructive relationship and moving on to bigger and better things. I thought I was waiting for the return of my love, but in all honesty, I knew that the love I awaited would come from what I had forgotten, not what I had chased. In six months I realised that I was beautiful and loved and could be the person I wanted to be if only I were to accept the love of my creator as my sufficiency. I was walking with a friend of mine by the river and I told her that I was content being who I was, where I was in life. That I was in love with my life, with my God, and with my future.
Enter Jesse. To this day I honestly believe that only God knows how and why Jesse and I met. I think it will take a lifetime to find out why we are together and how God designed us to be exactly right for each other. Right in ways we like, and in ways we hate, but right none the less. My passion, commitment and convictions collide as I strive to love this man and accept his love for me. Though I am not yet complete, I am completely loved.
Exit Christ (or at least back up). Throughout these, the greatest years of my life, darkness has crept upon me. Though it has gained no foothold, the idea that I can manage life on my own has continually tempted me. And for this, another pendulum has been installed thus leading me to the present time and situation. It's in the air again, and once again hung on the moon. I embrace the confidence that comes with new independence and reliance. Alone, I feel powerful. My God will continue to complete me and for that reason I cling to his Grace, Hope and Peace. As we turn towards our new life we feel the inertia break. It is completely uncomfortable, irritating, fulfilling and beautiful. It is complex. As it should be.
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